Friday, February 1, 2008

Square peg, round hole?

So I sit here and wonder what exactly IS my deal. I seem to always be about a half step behind, never quite where I think I should be.

Kind of always felt like I was one of those Outside Looking In people. Boy does that suck. I was a cheerleader in high school- but never one of the "popular kids." I do pretty well with my classes, but by no means do I feel like I fit in there either.

Even with college, I feel not quite up to everyone elses level. Like I'm in a totally different orbit, all of my own.

Some ladies from class were planning to stay on campus yesterday afternoon and study for last nights exam. I had to run and do the kid pick up. drop off, make dinner, make sure every one was set... and rush back to class myself. When I got back, they were all sitting around, studying and visiting and having a good time. They went to Red Robin for dinner, visited... wow.

That's just a completely different world than the one I live in. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be able to do that. Something as simple and unimportant as that- just to be a part of "the group" rather just being the one who watches.

But that's not where I am, or who I am. I don't know why it bothers me, but sometimes it is harder to see than other times. This time was hard-

Clara Lovin'

Clara loves... everything.

Not just everyone... everyTHING. Today at the $100 store (aka Wally World) I was busy pulling out a huge stack of Totinos from the freezer.... and I heard a laugh behind me. As I turned around thinking what did I do NOW?! I see the lady pointing at my cart saying "ahhhhhh How cute!!!" Now that I know she wasn't refering to me :) I see what Clara was doing.

Evidentally I left the cart close to the side of the bread isle... UNLIKE MOST WALMART SHOPPERS who just stop mid stream, thankyouverymuch. I left the cart and Miss Clara close enough to the bread that she could reach over and touch it.

In her constant search for lovin' she pulled out a loaf and found it to be quite cuddly. Pulled it out a little farther and hugged on it some more. The lady had watched her pull and snuggle, then look around to see if I was watching, then pull and cuddle some more. Ahhh forbidden love~

Oh for the love of whole wheat!

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Career change~

I am seriously considering a career change.

I could be a zoo keeper. I have loads of experience feeding herds at a time. I am used to cleaning up after monkees. I think this really could work out for me. The animals don't really care or notice who takes care of them, as long as they are. It really wouldn't be much of a change in that regard.

The animals wouldn't complain about what was made for dinner, wouldn't fight with each other over who touched who's stuff.

Hummm. I might have found something there. I mean, the worst the zoo animals could do is throw Poo at you- and after all these kids.... That's nothing.

Either that or get a wife. Then I wouldn't have to worry about Poo at all!

Sunday, January 27, 2008

No sleep, 2 tests and a sick baby~

Pretty much sums up my week.

I did manage to pull out an A- on my Micro test... not bad for a single, post migraine night of cramming :) Dude, I'll take it!!

Had a Chem test on Friday... not too bad- but keeping my fingers crossed none the less.

Now my main focus is on the latest round of "The Crud" I think I passed it on to The 2...maybe 3 shortest ones. And I am feeling their pain. Literally. The headaches, the fever...the "JUST HOLD ME!!!" I think I had at least one, sometimes more than one semi-permanently attached to my physical being for the better part of yesterday. And last night. And this morning.

Seriously need to work on the "pause life button."

Press Pause to ... Breathe...think...react...move the child's head away from my face... just the important things, ya know?

Still waiting for the lotto win so I can hire a nanny... then I would just have the privilege of paying her to watch me as I did everything myself anyway. Because only Mooooooooooooooooooommmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa will do when you aren't feeling good.